Another holiday comes crashing through and with that I begin again.

A new section - " I wish I had said that!"

“It is not easy to open up to someone and not worry about being crushed. And, nowadays, with texts and whatever, it’s so easy to make mistakes. We all do it. We all become pathetic.”

I Should've Gone Home With You Instead

I should've gone home with you instead. Your eyes lure me in. Could we be classy? Could we be fashionable? You've got a mind for a fashion. I should've gone home with you instead. You could lead me on a trail to your secret lair. It would be nice to be locked up somewhere else. Someone else's room besides my own. I should've gone home with you instead. Even when you're dressing down you look more dressed up.

Miniature feelings make me believe I have a heart again. I could be lying but you keep reviving.

Your Life On A TV Screen

I play your life on a TV screen. I'm just another worthless has been. Newspaper articles. Every teen magazine on the scene. I hinder on every word you wrote. Your eyes in film magnetize my every move. I play your life on a TV screen. And all that's inbetween. Please let me in to know how it's really done. How I can project the fun that was made in your time.

It doesn't help that I'm so wooden. I screw up daily. I'm no actor yet Hollywood pays me for my face. Please show me how to have some grace when I walk into the room. This culture has nothing but gloom for me. Teen idols laying idle while I try to grow up with a run-of-the-mill indie film. Slacker kids and the hipsters will torpedo my every move. I feel so lost in this maze. A spider's web has got nothing on me. A spider's web has got nothing on me. A spider's web has got nothing on me.

I'm supposed to be an actor. I'm supposed to be the factor that everybody watches me for a reason to take their lives away. Take their lives away for 90 minutes. Am I entertainment or am I here for your to make you use your mind? I don't know until I receive the paycheque. Even then I still have my doubts and reservations. Didn't know you loved so well. Not even arm candy can make me ease the pressure off me. I live and die by these situations. I'll marry the first person who imdb'd me! I'll marry the first person who imdb'd me! I'll marry the first person who imdb'd me! They might do my ego some good and help me boost my profile. I'll need that.

I play your life on a TV screen. But I hope my next job is on the silver screen.