Become Stupid

I become stupid. Like everybody else. I thirst for your love. And it makes me do stupid things. And now you've witnessed it. I jump to conclusions. Perhaps I'm correct, perhaps I'm wrong. You leave my nerves on a knife edge. So consumed have I become of you that I don't know what I should do. It's such a crime. But it's something I would've wanted. To play out this sweet torture that runs through my veins. If there was something I could say, if there was something I could do, I'd do whatever it takes. Including shutting myself off from the world completely. But that would be stupid. But I'd do it.

I become stupid. I forget the simplest of things. I cause stress where it's not needed. It's not the way it should be. Everything becomes needlessly complicated. I'm sadly just an idiot waiting on your call. I'd never expect you to lead the chase but I know that it was all my fault. I don't lay blame on you. How can you be at fault for anything? I know what happens next. Competition and jealousy. Toy with feelings and it's become treachery. But it's your love I want. I know it'll take a long way to get it. To win it back, I just hope you don't stay mad at me. I tried my best.

I become stupid. Because I love you. Because every silly word I've ever said wasn't meant to hurt you. Or to annoy you. But it's what I've done. Now let the agony play out like an orchestra for every switchblade symphony lies the bare bones of a silly love song that doesn't deserve to be aired. Because it's stupid. And I am the idiot who has made it happen!