Petty Small Talk ( Suffocate Me )

It's so easy to pull apart that exterior. So easy to wipe away that happy charade to see you're just a hurt little girl who holds little grudges that last a whole lifetime. Fade to grey. Turn to red. Back to black. Keep these colours in your head. Circle them around your bedroom floor. Keep your eye on the door. The one you want to love will walk straight out. The one you want to love will walk straight on out.

And it's your colour I see through. Because you can only suffocate me. Your neuroses play on my mind. Is this the future you really want? You get so angry over dark philosophies. Little jokes that make you cold. But you don't cover yourself in glory. You hide what you want and reveal little for fear of rejection. This petty small talk is all that we've got because it's all that we ever do. Fade to grey. Turn to red. Back to black. Sing the blues.

Oh the years that have passed. And why can't a relationship ever last? Roll on the grey years. Roll on the blue. You won't get my sympathy. You're too secretive to get me to care. It's not me who makes you depressed, it's yourself and your tortured ways. You want a person to hide your failings behind. Your own posession. Fade to grey. Turn to red. Back to black. Sing the blues. Pick and choose.

Petty small talk. It's your colour. Suffocate me.
Petty small talk. It's your colour. Suffocate me.
Petty small talk. It's your colour. Suffocate me.
Petty small talk. It's your colour. Suffocate me.

Are you humourless? Do you sleep in the night when you wish upon a star? Do you wish you had a man and a woman to satisfy your bisexual alter egos? Are you not the figment of your repressed biological state that yearns to break out but find that you're too chained to the stakes of your own religion no matter how you renounce it? Answer the questions. Answer the questions. And fade to grey. Turn to red. Back to black. Sing the blues. Pick and choose. You only lose.

Petty small talk. It's your colour. Suffocate me.
Petty small talk. It's your colour. Suffocate me.
Petty small talk. It's your colour. Suffocate me.
Petty small talk. It's your colour. Suffocate me.

You only lose.

In the end my death will be played out by a thousand pretty French girls laughing at my demise. In the end my death will be a victory for a thousand pretty French girls. In the end what is death but the start of something else.

Je suis un architect

Je suis un architect. Je suis le rouge en la chambre. Je suis en facile. Je suis.
Je comprends la revolution. Je comprends l'institution. Je comprends les complications. Je comprends.
J'adore les langue. J'adorez vous. J'adore le futur. J'adore.

Jour par jour, les animaux chantent la morte de l'amour. Tu conduis la voiture chaque jour. Tu es conditionnée.

Je suis un architect. Je suis le rouge en la chambre. Je suis en facile. Je suis.
Je comprends la revolution. Je comprends l'institution . Je comprends les complications. Je comprends.
J'adore les langue. J'adorez vous. J'adore le futur. J'adore

Je ne sais pas. Ces sentiments moyen rien. Plus est moins et moins est plus. Vous comprendez? Je déteste m'expliquer mais si je dois, je suffirai si vous voulez!

Everybody's At The Heart Of The Problem

Everybody's at the heart of the problem. I forget myself sometimes. I'm even losing things I buy moments after buying them. I'm an automatic train and I've got nothing to stop me, just myself. Everybody's at the heart of the problem. It's not your fault. It's never your fault.

Create, succeed and everything inbetween. Told us lies and created a scene. Can't relive the past but you know how these things are. I picture you crashing that very same car over and over again. Hospital bed. Discharge dischord. I'll assume the very worst to ensure the very best. Not that it ever matters. It's not your fault. If we knew who it was other than ourselves than who could it be?

I know it's not your idea of love but we can't take pictures all our life. You wanted the closeness of human kindness but all we got was scarred remains of each other's sanity. It's never too late to change but the effort involved isn't worth it. The more you change, the more you stay exactly the same. Self improvement is antisocial. No amounts, no costs, no fear, no action, satisfaction.

The more you want of something the less you get. For you it's love, for me it's sleep. Nothing gives me more of a thrill than one day waking up and finding out that it's become hibernation and not sleep. I don't get all that trapped intimacy, it's just not for me. You like to get inside when physically and mentally I'd rather hide in my own room. Hide like pharoahs in their tombs.

Everybody's at the heart of the problem. I forget everything and it all comes back. As automatic as they come. As automatic as they get. I go in different directions. A skilled tourist with a will to get lost. Forget cultures, we're here for scenery. Window dressing is high on the agenda. For you there's nothing else but another boy and another reason to feel miserable. The search for perfection continues. A search that is doomed to failure but perhaps worthwhile if you're that interested.

Sexualised dreams of suicide. Sexualised murder. We're planning for this at the end of the day. We're planning for this at the end of our lives. Little Death followed by the real thing itself.

Your Score: Fae

Congratulations! You scored 54!

You're among a really rare kind of persons. Maybe neutral, really balanced, or just way too timid as to flare with light or be covered by shadows. You can get attracted to either side, even become amoral, but yet, your vision is unique and necessary for balance, since in your hands is the fabric that puts together the Yin and the Yang. Some legends say that the Fae were part of the Celestial Courts during Lucifer's Rebellion, but these beings didn't join either the rebels nor the defenders, and when the war was over, they were expulsed from the Glory but not sent to Hell since they we're not really evil but neither really good. Besides the lengends, remember that the power of balance and choice is in your hands. You can still try to be a demon, an angel, or stay where you are.

Link: The Angel or Demon Test written by arkb on OkCupid, home of the The Dating Persona Test

The Exclusion Zones

The exclusion zones. Everything that makes you feel better, makes you feel worse. The exclusion zones. I want to heal the world with my powers. I want to take on the African Sahara and make it rain. Maybe you would like a better world? A nice environment to share with. I don't understand cultures but I believe in the human condition. The soul, the spirit and all that is inbetween. The exclusion zones. They are what should not be in society.

The exclusion zones. There's no black and white, they all deal in grey. They exhaust my thinking, they need to change their ways. My weak misanthropy. It's compassionate if I'm a thinking politician. And I am a thinking politician. Seriously in decline I've cancelled myself out. What a silly way to declare myself one thing that cancels the other out. Anybody who goes beyond either spectrum I try to set foot in I view with envy or despair. Perhaps a mix of both considering the way I am - a compassionate misanthrope.

The exclusion zones. Why can't these people reach out......isn't that what humanity is all about? I stray too close to preacher but I only want to teach others in how to live their lives. I make the mistake of believing that I can make a difference in a person's life. That I can have a say because I live in a democracy. A democracy all filled with lies but that's besides the point. Backhanders, backstabbers, what does it matter, it's all the same. I fell in love with Jimmy Clarke last night but quickly fell out again.

The exclusion zones. Can't understand those who can't wait for me to get their hands off them. I thought everyone loved hugs and kisses but I guess I was wrong. Getting intimate is like getting rabies or something. These crazy people just don't know what they're missing. Or are they missing out at all. I guess it's all wasted energy.

Please leave me alone. I do not want your advice. I would rather die in my own bed than get locked inside the thoughts of your head. It's nothing personal but you fail to understand the basic principles: to each their own. If you knew how much we wait for the day for society to crumble, then you'd know to stop letting out your thoughts from becoming humble.

Living in a prostitute society. Loving in a prostitute society. Talking in a prostitute society. Walking in a prostitute society. Fucking in a prostitute society. This is love. Now this is love. No this is love right here right now.

Fake Tan. Cocaine. Champagne ( When I Wake Up, If I Wake Up Part 2 )

Fake tan. Cocaine. Champagne. Flash the cash. Making the stash. Sit with me here. Let's feel like royalty. Sit with me here. Let's feel like royalty. Up here with people taking photos of us. I enjoy a glass of champagne that I don't have to pay for. I enjoy a glass of champagne that I don't have to pay for. Your my witness in the tabloid hearts and minds. Your my witness so let's make love to them.

Fake tan. Cocaine. Champagne. As long as you give me money then that's what I'll do. TV appearances make me feel so cute. Newspaper articles keep me in photos. Cheap publicity is my only goal. Cheap publicity is what I'm here for. I'll cost you but it won't be too much. Only aggregated on a minimum line. Say do you have some at the moment? I could really do with a boost. Sit with me here. Let's feel like royalty. Sit with me here. Let's feel like royalty.

Fake tan. Cocaine. Champagne. Lots of love by my bedside but I can't see you. No I can't feel you. I can't feel your touch. When I wake up, if I wake up I won't know what hit me. I'll wonder why these tubes and wires are all around me. And I'll put my faith in Jesus. I'll put my faith in Jesus. I'll bore everyone to tears as a reformed Christian. It might just be my mission.

The Smiths - Girlfriend In A Coma

Girlfriend in a coma, I know
I know - its serious
Girlfriend in a coma, I know
I know - its really serious

There were times when I could
Have murdered her
(but you know, I would hate
Anything to happen to her)

No, I dont want to see her

Do you really think
Shell pull through ?
Do you really think
Shell pull through ?
Do ...

Girlfriend in a coma, I know
I know - its serious
My, my, my, my, my, my baby, goodbye

There were times when I could
Have strangled her
(but you know, I would hate
Anything to happen to her)
Would you please
Let me see her !

Do you really think
Shell pull through ?
Do you really think
Shell pull through ?
Do ...
Let me whisper my last goodbyes

I know - its serious

Renegade Soundwave - Cocaine Sex

DJ! Play that favourite song for me!

Rhythm.



Cocaine sex is fast and effective,

If you don’t let down you might feel neglected,

Rub a little line on your gums,

Or lick it off the tip of your tongue.



Are we gonna have some?

Are we gonna have some fun?

Are we gonna have some?

Are we gonna have some fun?

Are we gonna have some? (oh yes)

Are we gonna have some fun?

Are we gonna have some? (oh yes)

Are we gonna have some fun?



Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Sweating)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Sniffing)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (You got it)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Pleasure)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Treasure)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Got it)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Hit it)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Rhythm)

Cocaine sex has past been selected,

If you missed out you might feel rejected,

Recognise and respond,

Pretend you’re doing something wrong.



Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Sniffing)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Sweating)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (You got it)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Check it)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Ours)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Hit it)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Whip it)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Rhythm)



Do it cos you think it’s exclusive,

Or do it cos you’re most elusive,

The first time you try the favour,

You’ll soon start to get the flavour,

Cocaine sex is fast,

Tell me how long do you think it will last?



Cocaine sex has past been selected,

If you missed out you might feel rejected,

Recognise and respond,

You didn’t have to twist my arm!



Are we gonna have some?

Are we gonna have some fun?

Are we gonna have some?

Are we gonna have some fun?

Are we gonna have some?

Are we gonna have some fun?

Are we gonna have some?

Are we gonna have some fun?



Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Sniffing)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Sweating)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (You got it)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Ours)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Hit it)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Another)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Wicked)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Rhythm)



Try to liberate the youth,

It puts an anaesthetic to the tooth,

But you better ask your dealers,

I’m sure he’s gonna pull out a deal, yeah.



Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Sniffing)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Hit it)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (You got it)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Wicked)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Ours)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Sniff it)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Check it)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Rhythm)



Take it in the evenings and mornings,

Packets from the match have warnings,

Said he’s sooner put his head to the speaker,

And feel the music blast through the t-shirts.



Cocaine and cocaine for sex.

Cocaine and cocaine for sex.

Cocaine and cocaine for sex.

Cocaine and cocaine for sex.

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Try it)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Another)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Wicked)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Lick it)



Suck it

Ours

Hard

Feel it

Sniffing

Buy it

Try it

Fuck it

Whip it

Check it

Wicked

Another

Suck it

Sniff it

Check it

Buy it

Try it

Treasure

Pleasures

Fuck it



Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Check it)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Whip it)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Another)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Hit it)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Wicked)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Lick it)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Suck it)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Fuck it)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Treasure)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Pleasure)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Hit it)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex. (Another)

Cocaine and cocaine for sex.

Cocaine and cocaine for sex.

Cocaine and cocaine for sex.

Cocaine and cocaine for sex.

When I wake up, If I wake up

It's easy isn't? This photography lark. I just smile with a glass of champagne in my hand and smile suggestively. I've got my fake tan and since I'm a woman I know that any man is interested in one thing and one thing only. I sell it in copious amounts. I'm a tabloid princess bordering on queen and I know that I get easy money for being photo'd. You see that's me with Calum Best with my legs all over him. Got free bottles of champagne and some 10 grand in the back pocket.

Living the high life. I won't come down. Give me more while I'm on song. Kick the habit? What habit?

My mind's a blank. My eyes are closed. When I wake up tell me how I got to this bed? And why these strange manky clothes that don't suit my figure at all. When I wake up, if I wake up. When I wake up, if I wake up........