Scene from an AA meeting ( Extended )

" Hello my name is Matt and I.....I've had an alcohol problem since I was.....Since I was 15."
" Well Matt, that's good. Admittance is the first step on the road to recovery."
" It's.....it's just so hard to let go though. It's because of my addictive personality. I used to......I used to think that without alcohol....I wouldn't get any sex. Alcohol gave me the chance to have as much sex as I wanted."
" Tell us more Matt."
" Well I've always gone to nightclubs looking to pull. And I would be successful if I had a few beers inside me. The more beers the better. But it got so bad that I had complete blackouts and I don't know how many people I was fucking. I went to the doctor's the other day......*begins to cry*......I'm sorry....the doctor...the doctor has said that I got AIDS. Now I wish I was more careful than I was in the past."
"I'm sorry to hear that."
" It's just.....I don't know. Some girls would get so mad that I could never remember their name, their face. They'd walk out of me and I'd feel nothing. Because I couldn't feel anything. I couldn't feel all that I could feel was a pounding headache. It got so bad lately that it felt like my body was reacting against me. I have a photo collection of all the girls I slept with on my mobile. They've all got names.....I don't know if they're their real names. I guess they were."
" Well Matt, what has been the lesson you have learnt from all this."
" Never drink alcohol. It only leads to more problems. Is it a disease? An illness? No but it can take you by the hand and lead you into it. All the fucking shit. Now I can't have anything the way it used to be. Before I went on the booze. I want my childhood back. But I know that can't be because it's just not possible. You just got to live by your mistakes."